Sidetracks; About that previous post...

Not being over-emotional about anything! I am just feeling rather down lately over the results of my tests, don't worry, I will get over it. I know I can. *Takes a deep breath, and takes a brave step forward.* The future is still bright for the chosen one! I will not give in! So long as every vein in my body still flows with blood, I shall conquer my worst enemies! (Sorry if I spoiled your appetite with that.) Anyway, going for a competition in a day's time, something related to geography and social studies, somewhere in between the two. The prize's a whoppin' six hundred dollars, no kidding! I really want to get a hundred and twenty ka-chings into my ka-ching keeping machine aka my wallet. But going up against some of the powerhouse schools, looks like it's rather bleak, but it's best to keep my hopes up! ALRIGHT! CHARGE!

Sidetracks; Neither here nor there, right in between.

Hey it's been a few weeks since i last posted, but that should be understandable considering that these past few weeks weren't being spent in vain. Instead, for the period of time that I have not touched a single key on the board with the idea to blog, I had been studying. Surprised? Don't be, it's only normal that I had to, because the common test was drawing near, well, that was a few weeks ago, right now, though not exactly free, but the examination fever has died down alittle, at least for the moment. Now the results are coming back in, some of the papers brought smiles, although most brought utter disappointment. Here's a question: "Why is it that when people work so hard to achieve a certain goal, that they often find themselves not doing as well as they should?" The answer's simple, I guess. In my opinion, when people decide to do their best, they won't be satisfied to know that after all they have done, that they fail to achieve their desired mark, however, the desired mark that they so desperately want to grasp, it's only because they are just showing the quality of us humans, and that's greediness. But it's alright to hunger for higher grades I suppose, I know I hungered. I craved. However, I did not work hard enough, and as the saying goes, "there is never a free bowl of rice", so in order to fill up the craving for higher grades, I guess I should be working harder. But right now, I am caught in a dilemma, and that is, now that I realize that I have wasted too much of my time, so much, that I now question myself as such. Doubtful, I now ask myself, is it too late?

Sidetracks; Looking through?

As I made my way down the street, that is when I saw you...
But all you did, was just to plainly look through...
Everytime I look at your face,
my tears start to flow,
because you,
make me feel,
so alone... so alone...
As I waited for you to try to recognize my love,
but you didn't care and within me the darkness lurked...
So everytime I tried to say hi,
I just watch you pass me by,
so I wait,
and I wait,
patiently...
For you to come and reply me...
I am not transparent, see...
I am not...
I am not...
a piece of glass...
Baby, look at me,
I am right here,
to stop your shedding tears,
because I am no longer glass,
because I will be here for you...
So we finally began our beautiful friendship,
but if I knew that it would turn out like this, I would skip,
I never meant to hurt your heart,
or to make you cry,
but you know,
that we can't...
can't deny...
The feeling's not the same anymore,
a wall's built in between,
it's that wall,
that wall built,
out of glass!
But let us try to break,
that thin wall,
of white transparency,
because you...
know that I...
will be here...
for you...

Sidetracks; The emotions flow.

Recently, I have come to realize certain things about myself and others around me. I for one, do not wish to talk about others as though I know them, because I dislike it when others are talking like they know alot, yet in between their claims is just empty talk. These are just my opinions, and I hope you can relate to them too...

People, we hate people who puts on masks, masks that hide their true character, masks that give them the look that they are friendly, kind, and generous. We hate them for that, but don't we all try to put on this mask? A person who's truly able to rid themselves of that mask, is a person truly worth respecting. This mask, we all need it. The people around you, needs you to wear it as well. Why? This mask, without it, the inner beasts, or the dark secrets of yourself you don't wish for people to see will be exposed. Had it not been for us trying to put on a mask all the time, there wouldn't be the kind people you see upon the streets, at work, at school... Look at it this way, had it not been for this mask that we try to put on for others to see, we would be treating them like dirt, now wouldn't we? Well, most of us are like that, but there are those special people who can display true kindness under all circumstances... These people are just people who have found their inner kindness. We are all born with compassion, but we don't show it till the last minute. When someone is hurt, we show it. When someone sheds a tear, we show it. When someone is fragile and needs support, we show it. These are the things that makes us human. I myself put on a mask. I look happy on the surface, but that's my nature, I like making people laugh, because I feel a sense of achievement when I can bring smiles upon people's faces. I for one, however, am not always the fun-loving guy my friends know me by and by... I have my secrets too. My own thoughts, my own feelings. Like at this moment, I want someone to talk to. I want someone that can share my thoughts, my innermost feelings, someone that will understand me. My parents? The age gap is too great there, but some thoughts are definitely worth sharing with your parents... But still, someone to chat to, someone true, someone worthy for me to share my secrets with... I need...a friend.