Sidetracks; Have you found what you were looking for?

Hiya everyone, it's been awhile hasn't it? Recently has been a real emotional roller-coaster, especially with the multitude of tests and tons of other stuff to prepare for just as the final examinations are coming up, but it's to be expected I suppose. But I am not sure if it's because of this sudden urge for my teachers to throw at us a bunch of tests, but it seems that the conditioning of our mental state seems to be working. I look around and I don't see a single one of my classmates complaining about tests as they did before, I am not complaining much myself, although we still lament sometimes at the amount of crap we have to deal with, but heck, it's become a part of our lifestyle now.

On a different note, I am starting to get these weird feelings that life isn't interesting enough. Is it part of this teenage crap that we all go through? Somehow, it just feels as though life's become really mundane, maybe it's the way we have to go through all the studying right now. I really wonder how people get by just doing the same things they do every single day, I am not sure whether to admire their abillity to adapt, or just laugh at them for not wanting to make a change. My sister tells me that it'd be different once I graduate from secondary school, and I'll meet people from different kinds of backgrounds, I really wonder if I would. It's almost the same now isn't it? We all do come from different backgrounds, but it's like everyone is the same when it comes down to it in the end.

Man, these feelings are driving me nuts, why the heck am I wondering about such stuff when I should be just focusing on my studies huh? Don't worry though Mum and Dad, I am still keeping up the grades, but I guess I tend to ponder over such nonsense once in awhile, leave me at it heh, it's the way I am. I suppose these feelings just accumulate over time every now and then, because I really have no one I can talk to about some of the stuff that goes on in my head sometimes. Have you found what you were looking for? I am still searching for my cause, and I sure hope to find it soon.